I'm just so dissatisfied with myself, with my accomplishments, with the way  act and the way I'm living my life. 
And I don't know how to fix it.

 

It's odd;

The hearts you used to hold in your palm that you can no longer feel beating.

The whispers you used to know better than your own that you can't hear anymore.

The name that used to live on the tip of your tongue that they've stopped answering to. 

Time moves forward, people change.

People forget. 

Life goes on.

 

 

  

Do you remember? Do you want to?

You loved me, you said.

I loved you.

I love you.

I.

Don't know what to say. 






...I miss MTT. I miss that family.

Those little hearts you send are bullets.
Those 'I love you' s are like knives. 
And with your arms around me, I swear, I want to cry.
You hold me tight, and say you'll miss me. I never want to leave.
But it doesn't mean a thing to you, other than common courtesy.

Okay, i'm offering myself up as a Beta. If anyone, anywhere, in any fandom, wants me to Beta something they've written, then just ask. I'm prompt and pro at English xD <3

 Okay, if you love me, than you will watch this. And then maybe you'll love Super Junior as much as I love themxD If you wanna skip to the good stuff, go to 3:10-ish xD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76XNW4MnT84&feature=PlayList&p=88F9C22FAC6D7AF1&index=10&playnext_from=PL

You wake up, rub your eyes;
Another day, another lie. 
You look in the mirror, see your face
And set about putting your mask in place.
And each splash of makeup's another wall
That's helped to make you strong and tall
And proud to be who you choose to be.
Who you pretend to be.
Who you aren't at all.

Because I steal meme's from people who steal meme's from people :P
( Pictures of my LiveJournal Friends )


Try out this Meme

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How awesome is that? :P  (stolen from both Mieem and Maddy)

 You get:
One question.
One chance.
One honest answer.
That's all you get.
You get to ask me one question.
Any question, anything, no matter how crazy or personal it is.
And I promise to answer truthfully.
No catch.

But I dare you to repost this and see what people ask you... (stolen from chicaintcheap )

 I met a booooooy... and oh dear god, he's perfect. Unfortunatly... chances are pretty scanty that I'll ever see himagain, or talk to him again or hear of him again D: So, correction, he would have been perfect.

On a brighter side, I wrote a song entitled 'It's like the sun rising on the west; strange,beautiful, blinding' ... i'm a big fan of the title. Theres a working version on youtube if you want to look it up, but i should have a final posted tomorrow. It would mean the world to me if I could have your feedback on it!